What The Urantia Book Means to Me - Jay Han

By Jay Han, Seoul, South Korea

Editor’s Note: Jay has authored five books on Urantia themes and translated secondary books into Korean. He has a Urantia blog and has produced more than 600 videos on Urantia topics.

All my life I lived in pursuit—hurried, restless, and chasing something I could never name. Yet beneath every success and every busy day, I felt a vast emptiness that nothing could fill. A quiet voice of doubt whispered that nothing held ultimate meaning. I was a Christian, but I could not feel the presence of God. Faith had become a routine; heaven, a far dream. Deep inside, I sank into the thought that “all is vanity.”

So I turned away from the noise of the world. I closed my business and entered a theological seminary, living like a monk in search of truth. I studied, prayed, and waited. The answers did not come. My mind grew full of doctrines, but my heart remained thirsty. Then, after I reached the age of 50, something unexpected happened.

One morning a mysterious book arrived at my door—The Urantia Book. Later I learned that a friend who knew of my long search had sent it, believing it would speak to me. From the first page, I could not look away. For three months, I read the whole book without pause. It was as if the book itself read me. I felt that all the years of waiting had been for this one encounter.

This book did not bring comfort in the worldly sense. It brought solitude, misunderstanding, and even the breaking of relationships. Yet within those experiences of turmoil, I discovered a new kind of peace. It ended my inner war, replacing despair with peace and luminous hope. The questions that haunted me during my seminary nights—about sin, salvation, life after death, and the justice of God—began to unfold like petals touched by morning light. I no longer had to force belief; truth began to reveal itself naturally, like remembering something long forgotten.

Tears fall as I see its blue pages, as if the wasted years of my youth are tenderly redeemed. I realized that this short earthly life is not my whole story, and that thought gave me freedom. I began to slow down, not out of laziness but because I no longer needed to rush. The race for wealth, fame, or even spiritual achievement faded. What mattered was goodness—doing what was right, gently and faithfully, one day at a time.

Now my mornings begin not with busy-ness but with gratitude and stillness. As I quiet my mind, the world around me becomes radiant with unseen beauty. The contradictions and injustices of life still exist, but my eyes have changed. I understand now that even evil cannot destroy God’s sovereignty, and that the injunction to “repay evil with good” is not weakness but divine wisdom.

My work has also changed. It is no longer a struggle for survival, but a joyful act of co-creation—writing, teaching, creating videos, and sharing truth. I feel a quiet kinship with the divine spirit within all I meet. Those once-strange words—Creator Son, Supreme Being, Thought Adjuster, Havona—now feel like the names of dear companions.

I envy no power, no fame, for before me unfolds the luminous path of life, life eternal and to perfection. The Spirit of Truth has led me here, and the Father within walks beside me each step of the way. I find myself quietly wondering what my next journey will be, but even that mystery feels gentle and bright. Until then, I want to do more good where I stand. My heart feels as light as a feather.

The Urantia Book has not given me any worldly gain, but it has given me something greater—the quiet certainty that I am loved, guided, and part of a vast divine unity. Its truth has made me free, and its vision has taught me to live not in fear of the end, but in awe of the eternal.

Now I understand: salvation is not escape from the world but the transformation of how we see it. To walk with God is to find beauty even in imperfection, to turn questions into wonder, and to let faith ripen into love.

Yes—truth has set me free, and love has made my soul sing.

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